im in the mullygrubbs

[sewingmom]

After becoming furious with a co-worker yesterday, I came to the realization that I am pretty depressed. I thought the trip to Memphis would help me to feel energized and though I really enjoyed the visit with Marty and my cousin Prissey, I am more in the mullygrubbs this week. I am considering asking my doctor for a little medicinal help to get past this. In the meantime I am going to try to get outdoors and walk a little everyday that the weather is good enough. I will go to the grocery store for the first time in weeks and get some healthy foods to eat and lay off the high carb foods. My wrist flared up in late November and It is not well yet so I think that and all the rain, was the trigger for my depression. Now I will pick myself up, dust myself off and start all over again!!!!

[lendube]

Well, I have to say, sewingmom, that your post was anything but depressing. You made me laugh before I even read it! Mullygrubs???!! What a great word! Never heard of it but I suspected it's meaning since it just conjures up a feeling of sadness.

There is a place for medication. Absolutely. Sounds like your attitude will get you through. You're still making us laugh and you're optimistic. Like you said, you go through this every winter. Get some sun and take care of yourself and remember we're here if you need us.

Take care.

[sewingmom]

I guess Mullygrubbs is a southernism. I can't find it in the dictionary tho My spelling may be incorrect.
I went for a walk with dgs and felt a little worse instead of better but will persevere. Thanks Linnie for the encouragment. Glad I could give you a chuckle. I hope you are feeling better. How did your MRI turn out????? Is DH feeling better???
One of my co-workers cried at work and asked to have a "girl talk" this week and expressed how very sad she felt and then last night another coworker expressed how sad she felt so the gloomy weather has to have something to do with the problem also we have 2 co-workers that have not proved to be trustable and it makes for a tense work place. My supervisor is aware of part of the problem. Some things one just has to keep to themselves. My temper outburst was at one of the untrustable people. He takes a tiny bit of truth and adds a lot of untruth to keep a pot of disunity stired up. He "can be" really good to work with but he forgets he/we are ancillary medical personell and not suposed to give the patient information or advice on their condition or choice of doctors. That is what he did with one of my patients last night and my name is on all his exams that were done. Its a fireing offense.
While I was off work for surgery all of last August and most of july, he told everyone, I was just burning my sick leave and was going to retire after I had used it up. He was a new hire last June. He didn't even know me then.

[lendube]

Sounds to me like your co-worker will be a short timer there. He can't skate around the truth and violate policy and stay there much longer. And good riddance!

I've been fine and my MRI results won't be known to me till the 27th when I have an appt. with an ENT. Looking forward to that to find out.........well, anything. I last had an MRI about 10-12 years ago and they've done a lot to make them more comfortable. I only went into the "tube" about 3 ft., there was a little fan blowing cool air in my face (and making my left eye water uncontrollably ), there was also a little mirror that mimicked a window so I could see the personnel in the office. All of that made it so much better. Not a wonderful experience but not too bad.

Dh is still sick and went to the dr. for the third time. First time he got antibiotics, second time he received steroids and an inhaler, now this time he had an asthma treatment (he does not have asthma and hasn't be wheezing so we don't know about that one) and some other asthma meds. His lungs appear clear but this thing is not going away with him, whatever it is. Thanks for asking.

[MartySews2]

Sewingmom, I know what you mean by the mully grubs. It seems at the slightest thing I break down into tears. I so enjoyed our visit & hope that I didn't contribute to your sad feelings with my life's story & challenges. Mully grubs is an actual word ... Urban Dictionary: mully grubs - A period of time when one is feeling down and out. Depressed, hopeless, lonely and sad. I would really like to give you a hug right now & tell you that all will be okay. The less than truthful co-worker will be found out in time. Just try to avoid him as much as possible. In your patients' charts, make written notations when the patients requests for info & that you explained to the patient that you cannot give out that info. Working in state government taught me the value of documenting every little thing regardless of how insignificant it may be. In a few weeks, we'll be having tons of sunshine. You may suffer from seasonal depression & a little bit of meds might help you cope a little better. I look forward to your next visit to Memphis & hopefully we will have a more cheerful visit. We will definitely have to plan a shopping trip to A Frayed Knot, a sweet little fabric store in the home of Cheryl Davidson who contributes to Sew Beautiful magazine & designs patterns. She's a doll. Call me one afternoon so we can chat.
Marty

[pinecone]

Sending hugs and rays of sunshine your way. Sometimes it takes more than a dusting off to get back on the right path. Meds and someone to talk through might just be the ticket. So sorry to hear about your coworker. Looks like he might learn the hard way, in the mean time it is stressful for you to be with. ((( )))

piney

[Bama]

Sending you cyber hugs ((((sewingmom)))). I hope you feel better soon. It's not much longer until spring.

[sewingmom]

Marty, No, I found your story interesting and found your success in rising above your circumstances, very inspireing. I look forward to another visit in the not to distant future.
I think I am just discouraged about the long recovery from the wrist surgery and many other things and I am very prone to seasonal affective disorder. It won't be the first time I have taken meds for the problem but I had hoped to never have to resort to them again. Life just happens and I am a pretty "Whiny woman" sometime. I trace this episode back to Thanksgiving because that is when my wrist flared up and I abandoned my sewing. Since then, I have had 2-3 mild illnesses and........ adnauseum. Thanks everyone for the TLC.
A funny note here. I usually gain weight when I'm blue and I didn't realize how much till I tried on the fitting garmrent that I pushed myself to do. ( I used last fall's measurements. )
it fit so tight that it smooshed the girls and I thought I'd never get out of it once I zipped it. I think it will make a perfect cover for my dress form so I can stuff and pad it to my shape except I'll need to enlarge the bust some

[MartySews2]

I can relate to long recoveries. Back in 2006, I broke both of my feet & right ankle at the same time. It was 8 months before I could put any weight on my feet. The physical therapy lasted another 4-5 months. Then in 2008, I broke my left hand in that car crash & it took a long time for it to heal. Now, whenever it rains (as it is doing today) my joints ache & I don't have the strength that I once had. By the time osteo-arthritis in my knees kick in, I'm a "mess pot". However, I just turn on my machine & maybe embroider a bath towel or wash cloth (doesn't matter if it's thin or worn) & I forget about my pain as I focus making something look good. Sewing is good mental health therapy. I can relate about the weight gain too. A year ago last Christmas, hubby bought me 6 new pairs of pants. Only of 3 of them will fasten now. However, following my new food plan, I have been able to take off some weight this month. I still have about 65 pounds that I want to lose to reach my goal. I may get there or may not. In the meantime, I sew tops for myself & rotate my pants. If I succeed in reaching my goal, I'll get a new wardrobe out of it. If not, I'll still have some lovely new tops to wear. Guess what I'm saying is, wear your brace when your wrist is bothering you. Yes, it's cumbersome but it does give some relief from the pain. As we age, our joints wear out & our bodies ache. However, we need to combat those depressive feelings with doing things that bring us joy. For me, it is sewing/embroidery or knitting something for others. When I focus on others, it seems that my sad, depressive thoughts fade into the background. Think of sewing something for someone else as a "thinking of you gift" or making an infant gown for a preemie in NICU. It doesn't take a lot of fabric & the parents would be appreciative. When I can't sew or concentrate, I teach others to sew for joy of sharing my knowledge & skills. I'm not a perfectionist & the sewing police would find lots wrong with what I have sewn but who cares. The main thing is that doing for others gives me joy. Maybe, it will for you, too.
Marty

[kjh9835]

I haven't heard mullygrubbs since my stepfather passed away in 2005, he used that term to describe mom in the Winter-time and she picked it up and used it also but I haven't heard her say it for quite awhile. Mabye b/c she lives in FL where the weather is better?

I can also relate to the depression, mine is always worse in the Winter though I have it year-round. Increasing your activity may help as it released brain chemicals but meds help me more than anything. They do take 6-8 weeks to officially kick in and start working so the quicker you see the dr., the quicker you can get something to help even if you only need them "short term" and not "lifelong" like I do.

I'll be thinking of you and sending you warm thoughts and big hugs and hopefully you'll start feeling more like yourself!

Kathy